Thursday, October 30, 2008
Post 68: Job Update
I got a second interview!
With the President of the bank!
eeeek!
I'm nervous but excited. I've waited 2 weeks for this, I better freakin' get this job!
Wish me luck!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Post 67: The Scariest Day of My Life
So I get to his house around 10:30am and I start playing with EJ while Big Brother tells me he is going to go take a bath (he hasn't taken a bath in over 10 years). So he grabs the space heater and heads to the bathroom.
15 minutes later I hear a crash come from the kitchen (their bathroom is off the kitchen). I figure BB must've just tripped on something and that was all. A few moments later I happen to peak around the corner (I'm sitting on the floor trying to get EJ to roll over) and see him lying half under the dining room table wearing only a pair of boxerbriefs. I thought maybe he dropped something or he was playing with Bruno (his Boxer)
I called his name and asked him what he was doing.
He didn't respond.
So I got up with EJ and walked over to him. He was lying on his side shaking and sweating.
I asked him if he was okay to see if he was conscious. He said he couldn't breathe.
So I put EJ in her exosaucer and got onto the floor. He grabbed my hand and wouldn't let go. He kept mumbling and gasping for air.
Finally I heard him say "call Laura!" (his wife). So I got up and called Laura. At this point I'm beginning to panick slightly (I'm really good at keeping my cool under pressure, so I learned today). All I told her was "Dan is on the floor and he says he can't breathe. I need you to come home! I don't know what to do.
I hung up and got back down on the floor. He started reaching for my hand again. He grabbed it and he was still saying "I can't breathe!". He was beginning to slur his words.
I told him to roll onto his back so he could breathe easier. Then his hands and toes started to cramp up and turn white. The colour in the tips of his fingers was gone and he was still sweating and struggling to breathe.
Then he said "CALL 911!".
I called and told the dispatcher what was happening.
Me: "Hi I need an ambulance at _____________. My older brother passed out and he says he can't breathe and his arms and legs are really tingly"
Dispatcher: "Okay, so is he awake now?"
Me: "Yea he's awake and he isn't breathing very well. He's struggling for air and he says his hands and feet are really numb and tingly"
Dispatcher: "Okay, how old is your brother and is he on any medication?"
Me: "Uh, he's 27 and no he's not on any medication. He's really healthy and hasn't had any health problems ever."
Dispatcher: "Okay, ma'am I'll send somebody out right now. What's your name?"
Me: "Jessica, thank you"
Dispatcher: "No problem"
Not even 20 seconds later I hear sirens. I put my hand on his chest and it feels like his heart is going to beat out of his chest. I begin crying a little at this point. My whole body is trembling and my voice is shaking. He asks me to run to the bathroom and get his sweats. I put on his pants for him and get back on the floor. I keep my hand on his bare chest to feel his heart and my other hand is holding his cramped up hand.
Then the fire department shows up and they start hooking him up to machines and checking his heart rate.
Laura arrives and is in tears which then causes me to tear up again. I tell her it's okay, that he's okay.
They tell him to start breathing slower and to take deep breaths. They check his heart rate and it's 158 (normal is 80 - 120). They get him to start breathing normal and his hands and toes start moving again.
They sit him up and tell him he probably just overheated because he was in a hot room, in a hot bath with no ventilation.
He's okay now. But damn, scariest day of my life. I thought he was having a seizure or something.
It's amazing how something like this really shows you how much you love someone. I couldn't imagine my life without my Big Brother. As much as we argue and how he sometimes frustrates the crap out of me! I love him to pieces and he's an amazing husband and dad. Oh and did I mention he's lost 100lbs in the last year (the EMT's said that had nothing to do with him passing out)! Talk about motivation!
I love you Big Brother! Don't you ever fecking scare me like that again! I don't know what I'd do without you!
Daddy's Little Girl: Dan & Emma (5months) - Sept 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Post 66: Survey Wednesday
Eye Color:: hazel
Hair Color:: brown
Height:: 5’8”
Favorite Color:: Orange
Screen Name:: jayjay81584
Favorite Band:: Too many to list
Favorite Movie:: Too many to list
Favorite Show:: One Tree Hill
Your Car:: Red 2002 Ford Escape
Your Hometown:: I don’t really have one so I’ll put where I was born: Syracuse, NY
Your Present Town:: The ‘Ville, OH
Your Crushes First Name:: David (aka: Mr. Incredible)
Your Grade:: 6th year college senior
Your Style:: it changes everyday
* . . Have You Ever . . *
Sat on your rooftop?: yes
Kissed someone in the rain?: we were on a porch does that count?
Danced in a public place?: yes
Smiled for no reason?: all the time
Laughed so hard you cried?: often
Peed your pants after age 8?: haha, yes
Written a song?:: I tried but it sucked
Sang to someone for no reason?: yes, I sing to Emma Jane all the time
Performed on a stage?: yes
Talked to someone you don't know?: yes
Gone out of your way to befriend someone?: not really
Made out in a theatre?: tacky
Gone roller skating since 8th grade?: nope
Been in love?: nope
* . . Who was the last person to . . *
Say HI to you?: Laura (aka: LaJa)
Tell you, I love you?: Holly (aka: Babe)
Kiss you?: Justin (aka: Mr. So Wrong)
Hug you?: Liv
Tell you BYE?: Laura and Dan (aka: Big Brother)
Write you a note?: Holly
Take your photo?: Holly
Call your cell phone?: Holly
Buy you something?: Mum bought me dinner
Go with you to the movies?: Josh (aka: Boo Bear)
Sing to you?: Hmm…I sang Aerosmith with Josh in the store the other day
Write a poem about you?: Tricia (aka: T-Dawg)
Text message you?: Holly
Touch you?: Rose (the other coach) grabbed my coat out of frustration because the kids weren’t looping during practice after we had been working on it since early Sept.
* . . What's the last . . *
Time you laughed?: a few moments ago
Time you cried?: I don’t remember
Movie you watched?: Miss Petigrew Lives for a Day
Joke you told?: “How do you know that cheese isn’t yours?” “It’s NACHO cheese!” yes I tell corny elementary jokes but whatever, little kids think I’m cool
Song you've sang?: “Be my baby”
Time you've looked at the clock?: Just now
Drink you've had?: Chocolate Soy Milk
Number you've dialed?: I don’t dial numbers
Book you've read?: “The Six Wives of Henry VIII”
Food you've eaten?: B-Dubs
Flavor of gum chewed?: Sweet Mint
Shoes you've worn?: PUMA’s
Store you've been in?: Walmart
Thing you've said?: “Okay”
* . . Can You . . *
Write with both hands?: Yes
Whistle?: Yes
Blow a bubble?: Yes
Roll your tongue in a circle?: yep
Cross your eyes?: yes
Touch your tongue to your nose?: yes, I’m very talented…with my tongue
Dance?: only slutty dancing
Stay up a whole night without sleep?: many times, it’s called college
Speak a different language?: ich spreche deutsches wenig
Impersonate someone?: yes, I’m good with accents
Prank call people?: yes
Make a card pyramid?: nope
Cook anything?: anything you’d like
* . . Finish The Line . . *
If i were a ...: professional soccer player
I wish ...: he would tell me the answers to my questions
So many people don't know ...: about my past
I am ...: a work in progress
My heart is ...: full of joy and love
Monday, October 27, 2008
Post 65: My Life Soundtrack
Opening Credits: Janie’s Got a Gun by Aerosmith
Waking Up Scene: Fields of Gold by Sting
Car Driving Scene: Two Princess by Spin Doctors
High School Flashback Scene: The Way by Fastball
Nostalgic Scene: Annie Waits by Ben Folds
Bitter, Angry Scene: Let’s Call the Whole thing off by Ella Fitzgerald & Louis Armstrong
Break-up Scene: Man on the Moon by R.E.M.
Regret Scene: Stolen by Dashboard Confessional
Nightclub/Bar Scene: Fantasy by Mariah Carey
Fight/Action Scene: I’m Yours by Jason Mraz
Lawn Mowing Scene: Superstar by Lupe Fiasco
Sad, breakdown scene: Come as you are by Nirvana
Death Scene: Famous in a Small Town by Miranda Lambert
Funeral Scene: Misery Business by Paramore
Mellow/Pot-smoking Scene: (I Just) Died in your arms by Cutting Crew
Dreaming About Someone Scene: A Beautiful Life by Lindsay Lohan
Sex Scene: Learn to Fly by Foo Fighters
Contemplation Scene: Viva La Vida by Coldplay
Chase Scene: Move your feet by JuniorSenior
Happy Love Scene: I Kissed a Girl by Katy Perry (wow)
Happy Friend Scene: Wonderwall by Oasis
Closing Credits: Lost by Michael Buble
Post 64: Suicide
She left behind a 3 year old daughter.
While I feel her actions were selfish in that she left a daughter without a mother, I also wonder, what made her to do it?
What event or events in her life left her feeling so lost and alone and helpless that she felt her only option, her only way to peace was by taking her own life.
I thought about suicide once. I never acted on it (obviously), but I've been there. I know what it's like to feel so alone, so helpless, so lonely that you would contemplate suicide.
My heart breaks when I hear about people committing suicide. I wonder what was going through their minds right before they ended their life. If I could've done something to help. If anyone could've helped.
What if someone had just talked to them, listened to them. Would they still be alive?
Now we will never know.
My heart goes out to her, her family (if they even care, i have no idea) and mostly, her daughter.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Post 63: Mr. So Wrong
I thought I'd share before I deleted them.
Ugh.
He was kinda cute...I'll give him that much...and he was an amazing kisser...and an amazing...
And we did have fun together.
Okay I'm done.
He still disgusts me though. Bleh.
I don't have regrets, at least I don't like to call them that.
But if I had to choose one thing in my life that I am ashamed of, he is that thing. I am ashamed because I dated a guy that I knew wasn't a good guy to date, I did things with him that I wish I hadn't done (that I will one day maybe have to tell Mr. Incredible about or some other guy), I lied to my parents about so many things (bad lies not just little petty white lies - I friggin' lied for him!), he knows things about me that I wish he didn't know (painful secrets that I told him because I felt safe and comfortable with him - at the time)...I could go on (if you would like to know details you can email me, if you so wish).
I guess I should've known better than to date a guy who was into drugs...what the hell was I thinking???!!!!
I feel so retarded when I think of how much he brainwashed me. How easily convinced I was.
I'm a smart girl, especially when it comes to guys. I always have been.
But with him it was like he had me under a spell. I believed every word that came out of his mouth.
When he told me he didn't do drugs anymore, that he was turning his life around...lies, all lies!
And I fell prey to them. Such a bloody fool I was.
Bloody hell.
He was mine.
Never again.
Never ever, ever.
I promise.
Post 62: Job Update
I feel like I'm applying for a job with the CIA or FBI. A personality test? Seriously?
I understand why they go through such measures when hiring people but I wasn't expecting a personality test.
I'm kinda nervous now!
Wish me luck!
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Post 61: People Are Disgusting.
While running I happened to step on something that was rather disgusting.
No it wasn't dog poo or a dead animal.
Nope it was much worse.
It was...
A USED CONDOM!
Sick! I saw it and before I could dodge out of the way I stepped on it.
My shoe came in contact with some else's bodily fluids.
I nearly threw up.
Sick.
My poor little PUMA.
Post 60: Week Two of CP25K and Updates
It went well. I had to skip the last day of week one because it was on the day of T-Dawg's wedding.
Going from not working out for 6 days to working out again is rough.
LaJa (well I convinced her) and I decided that we are going to run a 5k in the Spring.
From now until December we are conditioning for the 5k and then from December until the Spring we are going to work on running it faster.
I'm excited. I've always wanted to run in a marathon before (is 5k considered a marathon?).
I think I'm more excited than LaJa though.
Wish us luck!
We need it!
Sitting up all by herself in the cart at Target.
I bought her that shirt from Baby Gap. It suits her perfectly.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Post 59: My Best Friends Wedding
One of the tables
K-Ten, J-Long & T-Dawg...I have beautiful friends :)
K-Ten twirling her dress
J-Long & T-Dawg
"The K-Ten Dance"
The defines T-Dawg & RayRay so well!
K-Ten being herself
RayRay's Jeep all decorated
The Garter Toss (she had an Army garter just for RayRay)
The Garter Toss
Roomies Forever!
J-Long & K-Ten
RayRay dancing
3/4 of us
The First Dance