Thursday, October 30, 2008

Post 68: Job Update

I just got a call today from the bank.

I got a second interview!

With the President of the bank!

eeeek!

I'm nervous but excited. I've waited 2 weeks for this, I better freakin' get this job!

Wish me luck!

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Post 67: The Scariest Day of My Life

My day started with a phone call from Big Brother asking me if I could come over and help him with EJ. He was not feeling well and needed to relax.

So I get to his house around 10:30am and I start playing with EJ while Big Brother tells me he is going to go take a bath (he hasn't taken a bath in over 10 years). So he grabs the space heater and heads to the bathroom.

15 minutes later I hear a crash come from the kitchen (their bathroom is off the kitchen). I figure BB must've just tripped on something and that was all. A few moments later I happen to peak around the corner (I'm sitting on the floor trying to get EJ to roll over) and see him lying half under the dining room table wearing only a pair of boxerbriefs. I thought maybe he dropped something or he was playing with Bruno (his Boxer)

I called his name and asked him what he was doing.

He didn't respond.

So I got up with EJ and walked over to him. He was lying on his side shaking and sweating.

I asked him if he was okay to see if he was conscious. He said he couldn't breathe.

So I put EJ in her exosaucer and got onto the floor. He grabbed my hand and wouldn't let go. He kept mumbling and gasping for air.

Finally I heard him say "call Laura!" (his wife). So I got up and called Laura. At this point I'm beginning to panick slightly (I'm really good at keeping my cool under pressure, so I learned today). All I told her was "Dan is on the floor and he says he can't breathe. I need you to come home! I don't know what to do.

I hung up and got back down on the floor. He started reaching for my hand again. He grabbed it and he was still saying "I can't breathe!". He was beginning to slur his words.

I told him to roll onto his back so he could breathe easier. Then his hands and toes started to cramp up and turn white. The colour in the tips of his fingers was gone and he was still sweating and struggling to breathe.

Then he said "CALL 911!".

I called and told the dispatcher what was happening.

Me: "Hi I need an ambulance at _____________. My older brother passed out and he says he can't breathe and his arms and legs are really tingly"
Dispatcher: "Okay, so is he awake now?"
Me: "Yea he's awake and he isn't breathing very well. He's struggling for air and he says his hands and feet are really numb and tingly"
Dispatcher: "Okay, how old is your brother and is he on any medication?"
Me: "Uh, he's 27 and no he's not on any medication. He's really healthy and hasn't had any health problems ever."
Dispatcher: "Okay, ma'am I'll send somebody out right now. What's your name?"
Me: "Jessica, thank you"
Dispatcher: "No problem"


Not even 20 seconds later I hear sirens. I put my hand on his chest and it feels like his heart is going to beat out of his chest. I begin crying a little at this point. My whole body is trembling and my voice is shaking. He asks me to run to the bathroom and get his sweats. I put on his pants for him and get back on the floor. I keep my hand on his bare chest to feel his heart and my other hand is holding his cramped up hand.

Then the fire department shows up and they start hooking him up to machines and checking his heart rate.

Laura arrives and is in tears which then causes me to tear up again. I tell her it's okay, that he's okay.

They tell him to start breathing slower and to take deep breaths. They check his heart rate and it's 158 (normal is 80 - 120). They get him to start breathing normal and his hands and toes start moving again.

They sit him up and tell him he probably just overheated because he was in a hot room, in a hot bath with no ventilation.

He's okay now. But damn, scariest day of my life. I thought he was having a seizure or something.

It's amazing how something like this really shows you how much you love someone. I couldn't imagine my life without my Big Brother. As much as we argue and how he sometimes frustrates the crap out of me! I love him to pieces and he's an amazing husband and dad. Oh and did I mention he's lost 100lbs in the last year (the EMT's said that had nothing to do with him passing out)! Talk about motivation!

I love you Big Brother! Don't you ever fecking scare me like that again! I don't know what I'd do without you!

Dan (4) & Me (1) - Oct 1985

Me (almost 3) & Dan (almost 5) - Early Summer 1987

(In Australia) Dan (8) & Me (5) - Winter 1989

Dan & Emma right after she came home from the hospital Cute Little Family: Dan (he looks like a thug), Laura & Emma (4 months) - August 2008
Daddy's Little Girl: Dan & Emma (5months) - Sept 2008

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Post 66: Survey Wednesday

* . . About You . . *
Eye Color:: hazel
Hair Color:: brown
Height:: 5’8”
Favorite Color:: Orange
Screen Name:: jayjay81584
Favorite Band:: Too many to list
Favorite Movie:: Too many to list
Favorite Show:: One Tree Hill
Your Car:: Red 2002 Ford Escape
Your Hometown:: I don’t really have one so I’ll put where I was born: Syracuse, NY
Your Present Town:: The ‘Ville, OH
Your Crushes First Name:: David (aka: Mr. Incredible)
Your Grade:: 6th year college senior
Your Style:: it changes everyday

* . . Have You Ever . . *
Sat on your rooftop?: yes
Kissed someone in the rain?: we were on a porch does that count?
Danced in a public place?: yes
Smiled for no reason?: all the time
Laughed so hard you cried?: often
Peed your pants after age 8?: haha, yes
Written a song?:: I tried but it sucked
Sang to someone for no reason?: yes, I sing to Emma Jane all the time
Performed on a stage?: yes
Talked to someone you don't know?: yes
Gone out of your way to befriend someone?: not really
Made out in a theatre?: tacky
Gone roller skating since 8th grade?: nope
Been in love?: nope

* . . Who was the last person to . . *
Say HI to you?: Laura (aka: LaJa)
Tell you, I love you?: Holly (aka: Babe)
Kiss you?: Justin (aka: Mr. So Wrong)
Hug you?: Liv
Tell you BYE?: Laura and Dan (aka: Big Brother)
Write you a note?: Holly
Take your photo?: Holly
Call your cell phone?: Holly
Buy you something?: Mum bought me dinner
Go with you to the movies?: Josh (aka: Boo Bear)
Sing to you?: Hmm…I sang Aerosmith with Josh in the store the other day
Write a poem about you?: Tricia (aka: T-Dawg)
Text message you?: Holly
Touch you?: Rose (the other coach) grabbed my coat out of frustration because the kids weren’t looping during practice after we had been working on it since early Sept.

* . . What's the last . . *
Time you laughed?: a few moments ago
Time you cried?: I don’t remember
Movie you watched?: Miss Petigrew Lives for a Day
Joke you told?: “How do you know that cheese isn’t yours?” “It’s NACHO cheese!” yes I tell corny elementary jokes but whatever, little kids think I’m cool
Song you've sang?: “Be my baby”
Time you've looked at the clock?: Just now
Drink you've had?: Chocolate Soy Milk
Number you've dialed?: I don’t dial numbers
Book you've read?: “The Six Wives of Henry VIII”
Food you've eaten?: B-Dubs
Flavor of gum chewed?: Sweet Mint
Shoes you've worn?: PUMA’s
Store you've been in?: Walmart
Thing you've said?: “Okay”

* . . Can You . . *
Write with both hands?: Yes
Whistle?: Yes
Blow a bubble?: Yes
Roll your tongue in a circle?: yep
Cross your eyes?: yes
Touch your tongue to your nose?: yes, I’m very talented…with my tongue
Dance?: only slutty dancing
Stay up a whole night without sleep?: many times, it’s called college
Speak a different language?: ich spreche deutsches wenig
Impersonate someone?: yes, I’m good with accents
Prank call people?: yes
Make a card pyramid?: nope
Cook anything?: anything you’d like

* . . Finish The Line . . *
If i were a ...: professional soccer player
I wish ...: he would tell me the answers to my questions
So many people don't know ...: about my past
I am ...: a work in progress
My heart is ...: full of joy and love

Monday, October 27, 2008

Post 65: My Life Soundtrack

Soundtrack to your life

Opening Credits: Janie’s Got a Gun by Aerosmith

Waking Up Scene: Fields of Gold by Sting

Car Driving Scene: Two Princess by Spin Doctors

High School Flashback Scene: The Way by Fastball

Nostalgic Scene: Annie Waits by Ben Folds

Bitter, Angry Scene: Let’s Call the Whole thing off by Ella Fitzgerald & Louis Armstrong

Break-up Scene: Man on the Moon by R.E.M.

Regret Scene: Stolen by Dashboard Confessional

Nightclub/Bar Scene: Fantasy by Mariah Carey

Fight/Action Scene: I’m Yours by Jason Mraz

Lawn Mowing Scene: Superstar by Lupe Fiasco

Sad, breakdown scene: Come as you are by Nirvana

Death Scene: Famous in a Small Town by Miranda Lambert

Funeral Scene: Misery Business by Paramore

Mellow/Pot-smoking Scene: (I Just) Died in your arms by Cutting Crew

Dreaming About Someone Scene: A Beautiful Life by Lindsay Lohan

Sex Scene: Learn to Fly by Foo Fighters

Contemplation Scene: Viva La Vida by Coldplay

Chase Scene: Move your feet by JuniorSenior

Happy Love Scene: I Kissed a Girl by Katy Perry (wow)

Happy Friend Scene: Wonderwall by Oasis

Closing Credits: Lost by Michael Buble

Post 64: Suicide

A woman from my town committed suicide.

She left behind a 3 year old daughter.

While I feel her actions were selfish in that she left a daughter without a mother, I also wonder, what made her to do it?

What event or events in her life left her feeling so lost and alone and helpless that she felt her only option, her only way to peace was by taking her own life.

I thought about suicide once. I never acted on it (obviously), but I've been there. I know what it's like to feel so alone, so helpless, so lonely that you would contemplate suicide.

My heart breaks when I hear about people committing suicide. I wonder what was going through their minds right before they ended their life. If I could've done something to help. If anyone could've helped.

What if someone had just talked to them, listened to them. Would they still be alive?

Now we will never know.

My heart goes out to her, her family (if they even care, i have no idea) and mostly, her daughter.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Post 63: Mr. So Wrong

So as I was going through my photo albums on my computer I came across these photos of Mr. So Wrong and I.

I thought I'd share before I deleted them.



Ugh.

He was kinda cute...I'll give him that much...and he was an amazing kisser...and an amazing...

And we did have fun together.

Okay I'm done.

He still disgusts me though. Bleh.

I don't have regrets, at least I don't like to call them that.

But if I had to choose one thing in my life that I am ashamed of, he is that thing. I am ashamed because I dated a guy that I knew wasn't a good guy to date, I did things with him that I wish I hadn't done (that I will one day maybe have to tell Mr. Incredible about or some other guy), I lied to my parents about so many things (bad lies not just little petty white lies - I friggin' lied for him!), he knows things about me that I wish he didn't know (painful secrets that I told him because I felt safe and comfortable with him - at the time)...I could go on (if you would like to know details you can email me, if you so wish).

I guess I should've known better than to date a guy who was into drugs...what the hell was I thinking???!!!!

I feel so retarded when I think of how much he brainwashed me. How easily convinced I was.

I'm a smart girl, especially when it comes to guys. I always have been.

But with him it was like he had me under a spell. I believed every word that came out of his mouth.

When he told me he didn't do drugs anymore, that he was turning his life around...lies, all lies!

And I fell prey to them. Such a bloody fool I was.

Bloody hell.

I like to tell myself that every girl, regardless of how smart they are with men are allowed at least one "what the hell was I bloody thinking" relationship.

He was mine.

Never again.

Never ever, ever.

I promise.

Post 62: Job Update

So I got a call back from the bank. I am still in the running for the job. I have to take a personality test and then after the Prez of the bank review all the candidates they'll let me know about a second interview.

I feel like I'm applying for a job with the CIA or FBI. A personality test? Seriously?

I understand why they go through such measures when hiring people but I wasn't expecting a personality test.

I'm kinda nervous now!

Wish me luck!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Post 61: People Are Disgusting.

So I just got back from running today.

While running I happened to step on something that was rather disgusting.

No it wasn't dog poo or a dead animal.

Nope it was much worse.

It was...

A USED CONDOM!

(not actual condom found)


Sick! I saw it and before I could dodge out of the way I stepped on it.

My shoe came in contact with some else's bodily fluids.

I nearly threw up.

Come on people. Ever heard of a napkin and a trash can?!

Sick.

My poor little PUMA.

Post 60: Week Two of CP25K and Updates

Monday was the start of week two of my CP25K workout program.

It went well. I had to skip the last day of week one because it was on the day of T-Dawg's wedding.

Going from not working out for 6 days to working out again is rough.

LaJa (well I convinced her) and I decided that we are going to run a 5k in the Spring.

From now until December we are conditioning for the 5k and then from December until the Spring we are going to work on running it faster.

I'm excited. I've always wanted to run in a marathon before (is 5k considered a marathon?).

I think I'm more excited than LaJa though.

Wish us luck!

We need it!

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So about my interview...

It went really well (I suck at interviewing). I'm pretty convinced I got the job.

Usually when someone tells you to put in your two weeks notice that means you probably got it right?

I hope. Because she told me to put in my two weeks notice at DGP (she thought I still worked there).

I should know by Friday either way!
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I watched EJ yesterday. I'm cherishing these last few times I get to watch her.

I gave her a bath in our kitchen sink before her nap. She did really well in sitting up but she tends too lean to far forward so I had to help her a bit. I can't believe how fast she's growing up!

She kept trying to pick up the bubbles but they kept disintegrating in her little hands.

She was confused and just stared at her empty hands for awhile before trying again.

Here are a few adorable photos of her in the sink.




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Here are some more cute pics of EJ. Because I like to brag.
There's also two videos at the end. One of LaJa and EJ and one of EJ rolling over. So cute!
What can I say, I'm a proud Aunt.

Sitting up all by herself in the cart at Target.


I bought her that shirt from Baby Gap. It suits her perfectly.


Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Post 59: My Best Friends Wedding

My BFF T-Dawg got married last weekend in Indy! I can't believe she's a wifey now! Where does the time go? It seems like just yesterday we were Freshman in college! Unbelievable!
T-Dawg giving orders
Maid of Honour (sis of bride), Bride, & Mum of Bride
Still barking orders...lol
The Dress
One of the tables
K-Ten, J-Long & T-Dawg...I have beautiful friends :)
K-Ten twirling her dress
J-Long & T-Dawg
"The K-Ten Dance"
The defines T-Dawg & RayRay so well!
K-Ten being herself
RayRay's Jeep all decorated
The Garter Toss (she had an Army garter just for RayRay)

The Garter Toss

Roomies Forever!

J-Long & K-Ten
RayRay dancing
3/4 of us
The First Dance

Monday, October 20, 2008

Post 58: Circleville Pumpkin Show Photos

(I stole these photos from LaJa)

EJ wearing her fuzzy boots
NY Giants Fan (LaJa and I went to High School with #57)

In her PJ's

Daddy-O & Big Brother eating Fish n' Chips
Boo Bear & Babe (wouldn't they make a cute couple?)
Babe & LaJa
EJ & LaJa
Boo Bear & Babe again
EJ & Babe
Me, Babe & LaJa
Big Brother & LaJa
Me & Babe
Me & EJ


(I took these photos)

EJ in the car
EJ & LaJa
EJ talking to her Daddy (Big Brother) Cute Face
EJ & Daddy-O chillin'