Post 86: Song Lyric Sunday

What I've Done by Linkin Park

In this farewell
There's no blood
There's no alibi
Cause I've drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies

So let mercy come
And wash away

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands
Of uncertainty

So let mercy come
And wash away

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

For what I've done
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I'm forgiving what I've done

I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

What I've done
Forgiving what I've done

Post 84: Hmmm...

Is it weird that my friend's boyfriend just called me beautiful on Facebook Chat?

He also said I was adorable.

He's from Peru so maybe it's a cultural thing?

Hmmm...

P.S. I just added some info about LMC (my coworker/friend/future apt buddy). Click on the link "Who's Who" on the right side of my blog.

Post 83: Movin' Up & Movin' Out

There's a 96.4% chance I will be moving out within the next 2-3 months!

My friend/Co-worker (we will call her Little Miss Chatterbox, or LMC for short) lives in a studio by herself and really wants a bigger place and a roomie so we've decided to get a place together!

I'm oober excited, living at home is fine but I'm way too old to be living with the 'rents still.

I need to be on my own.

Wish us luck that we find a good apt in our price range!

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I'm also super excited about Thanksgiving! Turkey and all the fixin's! Mmmmm!

Gobble, Gobble!

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I really want to go on a fun road trip with my friends, the kind we used to go on in college. Where we'd decide to go somewhere on Friday after classes. We'd throw some clothes in the car and head out on a mini adventure/vaca. I miss those days.

Post 82: Song Lyric Sunday

Where I Stood by Missy Higgins

I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none

There were sounds in my head
Little voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening

'Cos I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside

'Cos I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do

'Cos I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
Oh, she who dares to stand where I stood

Post 81: Are you freakin' kidding me?!

So I logged on to Facebook tonight and found a message in my inbox.

I got a little excited thinking it was Mr. Incredible but was VERY disappointed and VERY PISSED OFF to find out it wasn't from Mr. Incridible, but rather, Mr. So Wrong.

"Hey whats up stranger how's life going? well i hope all is well...lol well wrtie me bac if ya feel up to it."

ARE YOU FREAKIN' KIDDING ME!

What part of "Don't ever f****** talk to me EVER again" didn't he understand?!

Plus he had SO many typos in that sentence...ugh!

Why won't he feckin' leave me alone?!

I bet he finally realized how amazing I was after spending all that time with his skank-whore girlfriend (that he cheated on me with might I add) and wants me back.

TOO BAD SUCKAH!

I deserve better and better's what I'm waiting for!

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On a happier note, I bought the new iPod touch today! I love it!

Post 80: First Day of Work

Today was my first day of work.

It was probably the funnest (yes, funnest) time I have ever had working. Ever.

I've had a lot of jobs too!

The people I work with are so fun and sarcastic! I don't think I've ever laughed so much on a first day before!

I hope everyday (or almost everyday) is as fun as this one was!

I've decided that when I get my first paycheck (after I pay all my bills of course) I am buying an iPod touch.

I have a Nano right now (which I'm selling to LaJa) but I need one with more space. I've fallen in love with BooBears iPod touch.

Plus I haven't bought something for myself in a long time! I think I deserve a little something!

Out with the old...

... in with the new.

Post 79: I'm a Proud Tante!

EJ is sitting up on her own now!

I remember when she was a newborn, all floppy and tiny.

I can't believe this is the same baby!

I'm a proud Tante indeed!

Post 78: Perhaps I should introduce them...

I’d like to introduce you to the people I talk about most in my posts.


I’ll start off with my family:

Daddy-O: His real name is Stuart, he was born and raised in Melbourne, Australia. He met Mum at summer camp in Australia where she was living at the time. He was 21, she was 17. I should also mention that he was her camp counselor (scandalous yea?!). He claims he fell in love with her when he saw her walk off the bus (he even remembers what she was wearing!). He called her and hung up three times before he got up the nerve to call her (my dad is adorable). He knocked her up in 1980 and they tied the knot in July of 1981. Two months later they gave birth to Big Brother. He is the head Research Scientist at Scotts. He has a PhD in plant pathology (snore!). He likes spending time with his family, laughing at Mum and he researches everything for at least 5 months before he purchases it.

Mum: Her real name is Kate, she was born in Rochester, NY to a ¼ native American woman and a German immigrant man. Her father worked as a CEO for Kodak (yes my grandparents are LOADED, hence why I refer to them as G’Money!) and so they travelled the world. A lot! She’s lived in England, Sweden, and Australia…just to name a few. She and her family moved to Australia in her mid-teens, which is how she met Daddy-O. She left Australia to attend college in Portland, Oregon in 1980. Somehow she and Daddy-O hooked up (not sure when because she was in Portland and he was at University in Australia…). She got pregnant at the age of 18 and dropped out of college. She married Daddy-O in July of 1981 (in Australia), they moved to CA and there she birthed Big Brother in Sept of 1981. She enjoys tractors, combines, anything farm relating, her family, and saying “that’s what she said” as much as humanly possible.

Big Brother: His real name is Daniel, or Dan. He was born in Riverside, CA in Sept of 1981. He used to be a Police Officer but decided to resign because he thought the hours would prevent him from ever seeing his family. He met his wife in high school but they didn’t start dating until his Freshman year in college (2000). They’ve been together for eight years. In 2004 they tied the knot and in April of 2008 they became the proud parents to the most adorable little girl on the planet (I may or may not be biased…). He lives in The Ville and is a stay-at-home daddy. He is in a band with his bff, Jayford and enjoys cooking, playing the guitar and singing to his daughter, beer and his beautiful wife.

LaJa: Her real name is Laura. She was born in Cbus (at Riverside Hospital which is weird) in Oct of 1982. She is a FCS (Family and Consumer Sciences…aka Home Ec). She loves her job. She was the cool girl in high school and Daniel was not. They were friends for awhile before Dan FINALLY asked her out. In Aug of 2004 she and Dan got married. While we were out celebrating my 23rd birthday I got the greatest present ever! They told us they were expecting a baby in April of 2008. That was by far the greatest birthday present ever. In April of 2008 she gave birth to the most adorable baby girl ever, who also happens to be her “mini-me”. She likes Yankee Candles, spending as much time with her little girl that she can, hanging out with her husband and family. She and I are also training for a 5k in April of 2009.

Boo Bear: His real name is Josh. He was born in May of 1990 in Melbourne, Australia. He got his nickname at the age of 2. He loved watching “Yogi Bear” and he would always say “Hey, Boo Boo! Smarter than the average bear!” it was so adorable the way he said it that the nickname stuck. He is a freshman at MVNU (which is where Dan, Laura and I all went). He doesn’t yet know what he wants to do, something to do with teaching probably. He is in love with Babe but because he knows neither are ready for a relationship, has decided to not pursue anything more than friendship as of now. He plays rugby and wrestled in high school. He loves music and is a classic rock expert. His other passions are his family and friends and making people laugh. He is the sweetest most caring guy ever, he treats girls with respect and is kind of a Pimp…in a good way (if that’s possible). He’s never dated a girl because, as he says “high school relationships are stupid, lame and full of drama” (it’s also because he has his eye on Babe). He is my best friend and can make me laugh like no one else (think Dane Cook without the language…even his mannerisms are the same!).

EJ: Her real name is Emma Jane. She was born in April of 2008 here in The Ville. She is my little bff. My life changed forever the day she was born. I can’t imagine my life without her in it. She changes every day. She is just now starting to sit up and roll over (she’s lazy). She is almost completely bald except for her extremely blonde “fuzz” on her head. She has big ears that stick out like Yoda’s (she gets her big ears from her dad). She has the biggest, deepest blue eyes I have ever seen. She loves music. I’ve never met a baby who loves music as much as her. When she was a newborn the only thing that would get her to stop crying were The Ramones (no joke). She also loves to dance, laugh, play the piano and blow bubbles.


Now onto friends:

Babe: Her real name is Holly. She is one of my closest girlfriends. I’ve known her for about 4 years. She’s 5 years younger than me but her maturity amazes me. She is crazy, ditzy and adorable. She changes her mind every 5 minutes and always has to be busy. She’s going to Capital and majoring in Special Education. She plays softball and works at American Eagle as well. How she can fit all of that in and still have time to have a social life is beyond me! She likes Boo Bear a lot but knows she’s too busy for a relationship right now. They are so cute together though and all of us are counting down the days that they FINALLY get together (this has been going on for about two years). She loves playing softball, sleeping during movies, and we are both in love with O’Charley’s chicken fingers. She knows all of my deep, dark secrets and I know all of hers. She was there with me when I had a mini emotional breakdown and helped me through it. She’s the sweetest girl ever and I love her to pieces.

Fish: Her real name is Olivia. She got her nickname because she’s really ditzy and forgetful, kind of like Dorey in Finding Nemo. I met her about 3 or 4 years ago. I was really good friend with her older brother, Nick. Nick would bring her along when all of us would go out. She’s much younger than me and I see her as the little sister I never had. She is still in high school. She plays golf and is in show choir. She comes to me for advice, which I try to give. She knows all of my deep dark secrets and she reminds me every day that those “regrets” are what have made me the person I am today. Sometimes I forget that she’s only 15. She loves watching movies, eating loads of pizza (where she fits it all I have no idea!) and laughing. I can always tell when she’s getting scared during a movie because she talks to the people in the movie. It’s really funny but sometimes annoying. She’s been through a lot in her short life which has made her wise beyond her years. I love her to pieces.

T-Dawg: Her real name is Tricia. We met my freshman year, her sophomore year of college. She is originally from Illinois but moved to Indianapolis to be with a boy, whom she is now married to. We’ve been through it all together. She was there for me during my “rebel” days and was the shoulder I cried on when things turned bad. She is the one I can count on to “tell me like it is”. I know she’ll be brutally honest and she’s not afraid to tell me what I need to hear. We’ve had our disagreements but have always worked things out. She’s my rock. She is a 1st grade teacher at an Inner City school in downtown Indy. She loves what she does and loves her students. She just got married to an amazing guy (finally after so many crappy guys!). She’s the one I talk to the most about Mr. Incredible. She loves spending time with her husband, is John McCain’s number one fan, and she shares my love for Pizza Huts stuffed crust pizza with black olives. We once worked at Cedar Point for 3 days. I was willing to stick it out for the summer but after the third day she came back to our apartment and said “I can’t do this anymore!” She’s beautiful both inside and out and I owe a lot of who I am today to her.

K-Ten: Her real name is Kristen. We met during our sophomore year of college and roomed together our junior year before we both transferred out. She lives in Indy as well. She’s dating a drummer and works as a Program Director for NJTL. She lives in a duplex in downtown Indy with two of her friends (I’m oober jealous of her!). She loves McDonald’s breakfast and diet coke. She was my sidekick in college and we were together all the time. She loves to snuggle and take naps. She is an amazing tennis player. She’s funny, crazy and has her own dance. She and I beat Super Mario Brothers our junior year of college. It was pretty much the most exciting day of our lives! Sadly, due to being so busy our friendship isn’t as strong as it once was but whenever we see each other we just pick up where we left off. I know that even though we don’t see each other very often, we’ll always be friends.

Mr. Incredible: His real name is Dave. He graduated from OWU with a double major in computer science and history (he also has like 4 minors). He’s a smarty pants. We went to Jr High and High school together. We graduated together and have been going to the same church for over 10 years. He is incredible (hence his nickname). He’s currently living in China and teaches English to college freshman. I miss him like crazy. I started noticing him as more than a friend about two years ago. I recently wrote him a letter explaining my feelings and gave it to him before he left. I told him to take his time and think about it before he gave me an answer. I didn’t realize taking his time would take this long but I imagine he’s quite busy and it was a pretty intense letter. Due to conversations and observations brought to my attention by trustworthy people, I believe he shares similar feelings. Only time will tell. He’s everything I’m not and he’s everything I want in a boy. I’ve never felt this way about anybody before, not even the guys I’ve dated in the past. Not even Mr. Almost Fiancé! That says a lot I think. I miss him and think about him every day and wait, and wait, and wait to see him again.

Little Miss Chatterbox (LMC): Her real name is Hannah. She's a coworker of mine. She talks fast and she talks a lot. She makes me laugh and shake my head in amazement often. She lives in a teeny tiny studio apt downtown with her cat Topanga. She's very skinny and eats all the time (i want to kill her). She shares my love of Sushi, MTV drama, and sleeping. She also is a waitress at B-Dubs on her day off from our regular job. We are 96.4% sure we will be getting an apt together in a few months and we are both very excited (she said living alone is getting to be boring and depressing). I'll add more about her later.

Post 77: Moving Out?!

So Babe texted me last night:

"Jess if we got an apartment and i commuted could we get it between like Marysville and Capital i want to live with you lol :("

Of course I'd love to live with her! She's one of my closest friends and it'd be so much fun. However, my job doesn't pay nearly as much as I thought it would BUT I'd have until Mid-Summer to save AND I get a Christmas bonus PLUS a raise in January.

So I'm hoping we can find one cheap enough that is halfway between her college and my work.

Wish us luck that we can actually do it! I'm oober excited!

Me & Babe

Babe, Me & Ace

Post 76: Song Lyric Sunday

Sick Cycle Carousel by Lifehouse (video at bottom)

If shame had a face I think it
would kind of look like mine
If it had a home would it be my eyes
Would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this
Well here we go now one more time

I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get it down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I tried to beat this

So when will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

I never thought I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kinda thought it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time

I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how long I could get it down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I tried to beat this

So when will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle carousel, yeah
Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle, yeah

So when will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

So when will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

Sick cycle carousel
Sick cycle carousel
Sick cycle carousel...

Lifehouse - sick cycle carousel
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Post 75: Before I was a "Good Girl"...

This is a true story...before I became a "good girl".

It was my junior year in college and three of my friends (K-Ten, KL and CS) and I were at a club. I was slightly intoxicated (not falling over drunk but also not using my best judgement). Some older guy (prob mid to late 30's)comes over to our table and starts talking to us:

Pool Guy: [looking around the table] "Hey ladies, how ya'll doing tonight?"
Us: (almost in unison) "Fine, just talking and having a drink."
Pool Guy: "Well I came over to ask if you pretty ladies would like to go play some pool with my buddies and I!"
K-Ten, KL & CS: "No thanks, our boyfriends just went up to the bar and will be back soon. Thanks though." [they all turn to me and wait for my answer, aka lie]
Me: [to Pool Guy] (not catching on to the very obvious lie, since we were all single) "Hey wait! I don't have a boyfriend! I love pool! I'll play with you!"
Pool Guy: "Awesome! [pointing] We're over there. Come on over, we'll wait for you to start the game."

Pool Guy walks off and I start to stand up, excited about "playing pool". I look over at my friends who are all looking at me as if I were the dumbest girl in the world (which I am when I'm drunk).

KL: "What the hell is wrong with you! Why did you tell that guy you didn't have a boyfriend?"
Me: [confused] "Because I don't...anymore if you don't remember! (i had just broken up with Mr. Almost Fiance that summer) Why what's the big deal? He just wants to play pool!"
CS: [laughing at my stupidity no doubt] "By "playing pool" he means playing with you!"
KL & K-Ten: "hahahahahahaha!"
Me: [dumbfounded] "Seriously? No. He's over there by the pool tables [i point to where they are standing] with his buddies waiting for us to play with them!"
CS: [shaking her head] "No darling, they want to get you drunk, uhm, well more drunk than you already are and f*** you!"
Me: [shocked] "oh! really? he wants to f*** me?! cool! i mean not cool because i wouldn't f*** him but cool because he wants to f*** me!" [i look over at Pool Guy, smile and wave]
CS: [grabbing my arm] "Oh my lord. lets get out of here."

That ladies and gentlemen, is why I never drink unless I have my very protective and trustworthy friends with me!

When I drink my brain shuts off and my body takes over. If it weren't for my trusty friends I could've ended up in his bed, along with many other beds I'm sure. Eeeek!

I also have another funny drunk story to share...about how I was so wasted I puked in a litter box because I couldn't find the bathroom...I'll save that one for later.

My 21st Birthday - August 15, 2005 (slightly intoxicated after consuming 2 margaritas)

Post 74: Photos I Found

These photos were taken in 1986. Daddy-O was a young lad of 28, Mum was 24 (my current age! holy cow!), Big Brother was 5 and I was 2. Check out Mum's sweet Reebocks (2nd photo...Oh the 80's).

Do I still look the same?

These photos are from my old camera I just found:

Look at how little she was! She's growing up too fast!

Post 73: German Village & Tricia's Visit

I'm in love with German Village. I would move there in a heartbeat (if I had $600,000 to spend on a house!).

Boo Obama!

T-Dawg & Me at Schmidt's

Boo Bear & Big Brother (he just lost 100lbs!)

Post 72: I am no longer unemployed!

I got the job at the bank!

Yay for making money, being busy and not having to pay for health insurance out of pocket anymore!

Whooopie!

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Booo Obama won! Boooooo!

I can't believe America chose a man with no experience, who may not even be American born (if he has nothing to hide, why is his birth certificate locked away in Hawaii???) over an American war hero?

Money, that's all people care about these days! Ugh!

At least Prop 8 failed in CA!

P.S. Obama doesn't care about the middle class! He want's to take your hard earned money and give it to people who are too lazy to get off their asses and get a job!

SOCIALISM DOES NOT WORK!

Post 71: 18 Things You Can Only Say on Thanksgiving

Boo Bear texted me this list.

1. Talk about a huge breast!
2. Tying the legs together keeps the inside moist.
3. It's cool whip time!
4. If I don't undo my pants, I'll burst!
5. That's one terrific spread!
6. I'm in the mood for a little dark meet.
7. Are you ready for seconds yet?
8. It's a little dry, do you still want to eat it?
9. Just wait your turn, you'll get some!
10. Don't play with you meat.
11. Just spread the legs open and stuff it in.
12. Do you think you'll be able to handle all these people at once?
13. I didn't expect everyone to come at once!
14. You still have a little bit on your chin.
15. How long will it take after you stick it in?
16. You'll know it's ready when it pops up.
17. Wow, I didn't think I could handle all of that!
18. That's the biggest one I've ever seen!

Post 70: This is a funny story...NOT!

We live out in the country and have our own septic.

One day we had the septic guys come and check out our septic, just to make sure all was well.

I must've been about 16 at the time.

I had just gotten home from school and went over to Mum who was talking to the septic bloke.

As Septic Bloke was telling Mum what not to flush down the toilet he looks over at me and says "no flushing condoms down the toilet young lady" then he winks at me and starts to chuckle.

He was the only one who was laughing.

Seriously who says that to a teen GIRL around her MOTHER?!

Ugh.

Maybe that's how the used condom ended up on the side of our road. Some girl didn't know what to do with her boyfriends used condom and so she decided to throw it out the window whilst driving down the road for fear that it would ruin the septic system!

Post 69: Song Lyric Sunday

Crazy for You by Adele

I found myself today singing out loud your name
You said I'm crazy if I am I'm crazy for you

Sometimes sitting in the dark wishing you were here turns me crazy
But it's you who makes me lose my head

And every time I'm meant to be acting sensible
You drift into my head and turn me into a crumbling fool

Tell me to run and I'll race
If you want me to stop I'll freeze
And if you want me gone I'll leave
Just hold me closer baby
And make me crazy for you
Crazy for you

Lately with this state I'm in I can't help myself but spin
I wish you'd come over
Send me spinning closer to you

My
Oh
My
How my blood boils
It's sweetest for you
It strips me down bare and gets me into my favourite mood

I keep on trying
I'm fighting these feelings away but the more I do the crazier I turn into

Pacing floors and opening doors
Hoping you'll walk through
And save me boy because I'm too crazy for you
Crazy for you